Still in the middle of renovating this livejournal!
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high
Well, I've been heading out a lot! Met up with my bangkok bro too many times. Haha.
Two Fridays ago: Ice-skating! OMG I love it and I miss it! Caught 'Gone' after that. It was alright but not something I would watch again.
Last Monday: Watched Avengers! Pretty good!
Last Tuesday: May's birthday! Mini celebration in town!
Last Wednesday: Met up with Denise! Meet up after a long while! Went to Strictly Pancakes and town to shop! <3
Last Thursday: Sam's house! OMG his house is like freaking cool? Automated mahjong table which sparked all our mahjong cravings! Truckloads of guitars and games and of course, his drum set that uncle Jason can't stop playing. Hahahaha.
Last Friday: Picnic and kite flying at Marina Barrage. Made sandwiches (ack, craving for them now!), had food and just chilled out the whole time.
Last Saturday: Steph's house! Steamboat, mahjong and games. Endless night of fun. Didn't sleep at all! Crazy people. Hahaha. Got a new 'Steph's house bros' whatsapp convo for discussing all our meetings!
Last Sunday: Got home at about 9.30am after being overnight at Steph's house. Hahaha. Slept a few hours and went to meet JC clique at Food for Thought @ Botanic Gardens. Short but nice meet up. They got me super duper huge helium balloons! Hahaha. <3<3<3
Spent this week staying home quite a bit! Except going out to do my nails and have dinner with Aunt. Also went baking at Steph's house yesterday! Then dinner with Steph's house bros and headed to Switch till late.
Urgh, such a boring update. Hahaha.
Things happened like the past. Just that now I'm older, I react differently and others react differently. I wonder if the way I'm handling the situation is right? Well, the past has shown me that it really wasn't but I don't know how else to do it. Decisions, decisions, decisions. Aiya, so complicated.
After the horrible weeks of preparing for presentations and finals, I got a taste of liberation on 28th April at 3pm. Now, lets skip the part about how finals went cause I shall break the long chain of emotional and frustrating posts.
& to start the holidays off, I flew off to Bangkok!
(Okay, I don't know why I can't upload photos here. Oh well.)
I totally enjoyed myself there! Completely touched also when the rest (Rach, Jess, Steph, HengSiong, Artons, Joey, Samuel and Jason) celebrated my birthday for me!
OMG I'M FREAKING TWENTY AND NO LONGER A TEENAGER, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
Hahaha, okay that aside, I've had a lot of memories there. All the things we did, all the food we ate, all the stuff we bought. It was simply fabulous, apart from some minor stuff. Hahahaha. Well, what happened in Bangkok, stays in Bangkok. So shhhhhhh.
Been living the life of a pig since I got back. Eat, sleep, play. Hahaha. This is life. (:
Tsk, this is such a retarded post. Lol. *shrugs*
- Music:Twinkle - Taetiseo
Sigh. Always posting when I'm in a bad mood. Sucks totally.
Well what is it today?
School, finals, stress, as usual. I totally hate the fact that I get so easily affected by grades. I'm in a super bad mood now that I don't have time to study for finals and in like so screwed cause I can't solve any DSC questions and I haven't started studying for MA.
Of course, this can't be all. I barely started for AIS which is in 2 days' time. FML.
I seriously don't know what to do anymore. My expectations and morale are at rock bottom. The only thing I have is fear of doing worse and trust me, it's super duper difficult to do worse given my already cui ttm grades.
Everyone's saying that it's fine and I'll improve. But its not fine. I know they just want me to feel better but I guess all I need now is a miracle. Oh but wait, I think I ran out of them...
FMLFMLFML. So many things I wanna rant and cry about but I can't. So many things I wanna give up on but I can't. So much hope, so much disappointment and so much unrealistic thoughts.
On the bright side, I have been through worse.
I need some time alone. I need sleep.
No one knows.
*random post that is incoherent and makes no sense.
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Sigh.
I have so many things that I want to talk about cause today has been a really bad day.
First, I screwed up my FOP.
Second, I can't apply for SEP, again.
I'm so damn disappointed with myself. Why am I always like that? Screwing up at the last phase. Reminds me of the past...
But then again, how many miracles did I expect?
I need anyone, anything, anywhere.
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Well, its already week 9 of semester 2. Time flies like nobody's business. I can't even remember what happened these few weeks!
There was recess week, which I fell sick for oh-so-long; biz com report, which was oh-so-draining; MA mid terms, which was oh-so-not-enough-time-to-finish-the-pape
I've been really stressed out at the start of the semester because of my grades. Having way too many emotional and dark days, which I really disliked. Only times I were happy when I can actually sleep in or when I meet my beloved friends. But every time such happy moments end, I'll always be reminded of my never-ending pile of work waiting for me. ):
I guess I need better time management and less procrastination. I'm feeling just a tiny weeny bit better this week cause I've had a bit more time of hand to sleep more and meet up with my loves. The next few weeks are gonna be tough, very tough.
On top of my weekly tutorials, I have 2 marketing presentations coming up, 1 DSC tutorial presentation and 1 DSC Project presentation, biz comm formal oral presentation and formal individual presentation, MIS tutorial presentation and individual project and MA tutorial presentation. All this in just a short span of 3 weeks. I'm so gonna die. Crap. Just realized its 4 weeks to finals too. Damn.
Sigh, I'm gonna go emo in a corner for a while now. Then work on my oweek stuff tonight.
I need more hope and positivity in my life now.
- Music:Heaven - Ailee
If I'm not wrong, this is my first post for 2012! Hahahahahahahaha. And I'm typing this on my way to school. Sigh.
Yep, so school started and its actually the end of week 2 already! I've just been having lectures and sectionals, no tutorials just yet! Still, I've been kept really busy with the Special Project Committee's NUS Business Fashion Week 2012. I'm the the programs cell but I seem to have done a bit of everything. Lol.
I have no idea why I'm typing this now. Probably cause I'm going crazy? Hahahaha. Stayed in school till 10pm for the past two days for the fittings and rehearsal for the runway and feeling like crap due to the lack of sleep and insufficient preparations for lessons. Double sectionals today and I'm
not prepared! How in the world am I gonna pull up my class participation and CAP?! Urgh.
I don't really know why but I really like organising events. I think I'm putting in a lot of effort for the Fashion Week and Runway that I'm surprised myself. Probably a lot more than what's I'm suppose to do? Still, all I know is that the fact that I joined this committee and event, then I really want to be super involved and make this event worthwhile.
Kudos to Trev and gang for this event. Working with capable people makes me feel like I'm have so much more to know. Hahaha.
Anyway, I shall end off. Too tired on the train and so I shall nap.
Tonight's the night.
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Yes I know I just posted a few hours ago but that was like just simply recollecting what happened this year. I suddenly feel like writing more?
What have I learnt this year?
I don't really know? Hahaha.
All I know is that I experience a lot of emotions this year.
Sometimes I think that I think too much, too far and too negatively. Yet, I can't seem to help it. Just my personality I guess?
I guess its time for me to really take charge of my life and not always blame others because they made the decision for me. I need to stop using my parents as an excuse for all my incompetences. Who knows, I may make bad choices but ain't that part and parcel of life? I reckon I should just live my life without any regrets cause its what makes me happy, simply trying.
I'm really thankful for all the friendships I have too. My KA friends helped me a lot during the school term. They taught, tutored, explained, consoled, and cheered me up during the horrible examination periods and I should really treasure these people, a lot.
Thankful for all my other existing friends too. From nuts to jc clique to denise and limin. They are just love. They are forever there. Always providing a listening ear and always making my sometimes miserable life, not so miserable. Thank you all. ❤
2012 shall be a year where I work harder for all my family, friends and myself. So that in a years time, I'll proudly type another post about how successful I have been and how my life is awesome.
Hahaha. On the cab now to Cheryl's house! Countdown layer tonight. I cooked scrambled eggs! Yummy! :D
& may 2012 be oh-so-awesome! (:
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I don't know why I have this sudden urge to do a recollection of this year, is it simply because its unforgettable?
Haha, well. 2011 has been a year of ups and downs. I flew onto cloud nine and fell into hell.
I started the year off fine by working at Recruit Express! Job was so so but the company I have there was awesome. I made many new friends like all the GKW, GEC, SYM, SYJ, SSY, SJT, SEE and I-can't-remember-Luke's-sales-code. Come to think of it, I really have quite a few experiences there. From the lunch by Singapore River and on the floor in interview rooms, to getting 'shot' by the perm staffs cause my candidates didn't turn up for interviews to long and frequent toilet beaks and spying on what Mark is doing on his computer. HAHAHAHA, those were the memories. Oh and did I mention that some of my candidates then are now my schoolmates?! Just that they don't really remember their consultant while I remember only their names! Hahahahaha, tsktsktsk. What coincidence!
I worked my ass off (okay, maybe not since I'm a slacker) till 3rd March cause 4th March was results day. LIKE OMG RESULTS DAY YOU KNOW?! THE DAY THAT SORTA LIKE DETERMINES THE REST OF MY LIFE?!?!?!? (Well, now I do realized that it doesn't. Hahahahaha.) I still remember that I Googled what was my lucky colour and ended up wearing a turquoise tee with jeans and even tied up my hair, looking #likeaguai kid. My friends were like why in the world was I dressed like that?! Hahaha, I met clique at AMK drive through Macs before we walked to school together. I clearly remember that I was freaking out before the results were released, when Susie (then AJ principal), were like analyzing all the subject performances of what crap. Almost cried because of the anxiety. Like what the hell was wrong with me right? Hahahahaha. Then tada, shock of my (then) life, my name appeared on the screen. I was like, drops jaw, starts crying, covers face, looks at screen again, continue crying. Totally epic now that I think of it. LOLOLOLOL! I even went up to stage to collect my certificate! But sadly, I was horribly dressed. :/
The results totally felt like a dream. I still remember that I woke up the next morning and asked myself if it was true and jumped up to find my cert. Haha, total retard sia. But you know, awesome dreams can often turn into nightmares? & it sorta did with the whole war at home because I didn't want to put Law as my first choice. Urghhhhh. It was like war at home cause of the damn courses and scholarships, which I totally didn't want to apply but was sorta forced to. So whatever la, I gave in after a torturous fight and went to Taiwan with May, Baiyu and LiWen for our getaway!
Taiwan trip wasn't too bad. It was a really memorable experience heading overseas and enjoying life with friends. On a side note, I really want a getaway! Anywhere will do!
Then it was April! When I slacked my way through. No work, everyday stay at home and camp my dramas. Haha, some simple yet satisfying times... Until World War 4? Hahaha. Didn't get into Law, parents forcing me to write an appeal, I refused, made me seem like an unfilial child, I gave in (well, I have to!), wrote it unwillingly, appealed failed as expected, yay secretly inside, parents sad, but yeah whatever. It was like those 7pm Channel U drama at home where I was to unfilial rebel with parents with sky high (impossible) expectations. Like seriously you know?! But aiya, actually deep down I know that I didn't want to study Law, I was just psycho-ing myself to think that I want it but I can totally tell that the interviewers can see through me. Oops? Hahaha.
Oh and when the appeal failed, I immediately signed up for FOC! I still remember that I was rather excited while signing up in my room, with all the funny Pokemon questions. Hahahahahaha! FOC was really awesome! Best camp I've been to, well I haven't been to many but still... I had a blast and made awesome friends like YC, HuiShan, GuoHao, Clayton, KA etc! I even joined Rag thanks to it and it was just unforgettable. There was definitely no better way to start university than with all the FOPs. Those are some awesome memories that I have. (:
Then school started in August! A totally different style of learning! Everything is just so free~ which I like! But the competition is like bleah~ LOL? Enjoyed school to some extent since my class was great and I like the people in business! Only downside was probably my grades? My CAP is like no joke sia. Cui ttm is like an understatement. Lost my chances of going for an exchange. *cries, bangs wall, gets emo again* Okay, I really want to skip writing about this part. :/
Anyway, 2011 marked many milestones for me. I got my A level results, started university and its the last year of my teenage life! Like OMG?!?!?! I feel old. Many ups, many downs. Many memories, much pain. Many friendships, much budget deficit. Still, I'm grateful for 2011. I've had all my problems because of my 6 As but who knows? I might have more if I didn't! I got emotional a lot of times this year. I cried a lot, definitely much more than previous years. My tear glands have been pretty active huh? Okay, lame. However, I definitely laughed and smiled a lot too. So I guess I should be thankful for 2011?
Gonna be counting down to the new year with JC clique! Potluck so I'll be cooking some stuff. I really can't wait to meet them!
*PS. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL! <3
Goodbye 2011, I wouldn't say you were great, but you definitely left me with a lot of memories, both good and bad. I'm not gonna set resolutions for 2012 because I'll only get upset if I don't fulfill them. Instead, I think its important that I know what I want and that's sufficient.
Let's all hope, and more importantly, work towards a better 2012.
*Hahahaha, I'm ending this post #likeacheem :D
HAPPY NEW YEAR !
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geeky
I got my year one semester one results this morning and bad was an understatement. It's way worse than my worst case scenario and I totally have no chance of going for an exchange already.
I need to keep myself out of my house so I won't think so much.
I found my new spot to emo too.
Please tell me what can be worse?
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